The Little Jade Queen breaks down under the pressure of stress of being alone and even though she hides behind a mask of joy and happiness at assuming independant, she is emotionally drained. She finally lashed out her inner most desires and thoughts when the Roadster made a connection through the stellular cell. The Roadster finally listened and realised (Or so she hopes) the amount of pressure ruling a kingdom brings the Little Jade Queen. The Little Jade Queen is unsure if the Roadster finally understood what's going on but the Little Jade Queen hopes that it clears the air a bit. Her Femme is having problems of her own, that is of the Green eyes Demoness she is forced to work with everyday. It's interesting that once another Femme gets special attention, Green eyed Demoness surfaced. It was kind of like the time when the "Temptress" entered into the short term union of The Little Jade Queen and "Confused Soul", Causing an uproar and bringing hurt into the Little Jade Queen's fragile heart as she has placed her faith in the "Temptress's" promises not to bring harm. However, The Little Jade Queen realised that certain things have to be released and knowing what causes the Storm, she let go of the cause and the reason to go on. Realising that her union with the Roadster is brought about by a Higher Being, she is contented as she saw many things about herself, the people around her and whoms she holds dear.. Lessons in life that can never be replaced and The Little Jade Queen believes in Karma.... the wheels will turn and one day, you will taste and feel what the Little Jade Queen have been through and survived through...

Two songs have made an impact on the Little Jade Queen at the moment of Abandonment and that made her realise that she isn't as impenetrable as she seems to be behind her jaded mask and cool exterior. She found out that she must have a reason to go on in this inter planet relationship with the Roadster. With his unceasing love and contiuous support, the Little Jade Queen's Shattered heart has been slowly healing. In Hoobastank's "The Reason", she realised that she must make it a point to redefine her position in her heart and settle her fallen esteem. The Song says " I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you" No one is perfect and in a relationship, it's an on going journey of trial and error, as there is no 100% way of dealing with a relationship. Neither is there a surefire formula to a relationship. It takes constant faith, and trust that both people involved in the relationship unite together and try to overcome adversity in the relationship. Whether the hurt and conflicts have been made up unneccessarily, both parties must work things through. "I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear" Through ther period of trial and error, hurt and sadness have been unintentionally inflicted and a person must bear the scars of the betrayal of trust and hurt inside for life, but there is always regret in life, and through all the mistakes and suffering, one gains in experience. That's how individual grow in a relationship and how couples grow as well, through adversity, one can learn many lessons that one will never learn in the land of total bliss. Character will be groomed and individuality of a person blooms. Perserverance, determination and trust in each other's love will pay off eventually as a Higher Being has already written down your destiny.

The Little Jade Queen sheds tears of crystals everytime the sun kisses the horizon and when her heavy head hits the softness of the downey pillow. U Know this feeling that you lost your grip on something and then the door opens and all the maggots start chewing inside you? It's a terrible feeling don't u think? Why is it that when i ask for a moment to breathe, and when i get it, it feels like the breath of freedom isn't as appealing as it was initially. You see, after being with the Roadster for more than 2 years of my life and being one entity together, and suddenly you are like an ameboea and u have to split for a moment. At that critical moment of seperation, it's the most intense moment in a split second. This brings me back to the question that i threw to a person in a moment's of aquaintance, "how can you not love someone at a turn of a moment? how can you don't love in a day?" It took the Little Jade Queen long enough to lose the affections towards the "Confused Soul" and now she builds walls around herself as not to fall prey to the works of the "Temptress" whom she banishes from her Kingdom. And at that crutial moment, the Abandonment of the Throne took place and the Little Jade Queen is now shrouded in Darkness and Oblivion. Will she pull through.. or will the Roadster pull her out of it?

Guess what.. the Roadster and i decided to have a little break on our relationship. it was a hard decision and many factors lead to our seperation.. Thrown in to loneliness and now thrown into the world of singlehood again, i kindda forgotten what it is like to be single, having someone nearby emotionally. Heartfelt effort by my Femme to let me Paint the town red is seemingly going to no avail as my little emotional chamber is still in the very being of the Roadster. Commitment... what is Commitment? i Remember the "Confused Soul" asked me if commitment is a scary word and i replied that it isn't, it's just a matter of how you deal with it. He also asked me one night if it's better to plan for a marriage or just get married. Seriously, i don't know how to deal with such a question as well, The Little Jade Queen and the Roadster are still working out the bugs in the inter Kingdom relationship. So how can i answer the "Confused Soul"'s question? I don't find commitment scary actually, i find the process rather fearsome as it's a matter of what's required of you and the expectation that have to be carried out. In this process it has went from "Our Relationship" to "HIS RELATIONSHIP". Even though So, the Little Jade Queen tries her best to adapt, but however, here is the Little Jade Queen and the Roadster now.. taking time off to breathe.....

I was on my way to work the other day, and i was sort of blasting the music when i had a thought. there was this scene in Dirty Dancing 2: Havana nights (I watched it 4 times now) that was stuck in my head. It was this scene near the end where Katey and Javier was in the courtyard and i remember what they said. Katie: "I Shall take you with me." Javier : " I shall always keep you here."(Puts his hands over his heart). What significance does that have over the whole story plot. It kindda reminds me of the time my Roadster left for the land of Big Ben, however, no words have to be said. it's interesting though when people go through a long term relationships that they have to stand their ground and work their asses off. Ususally the easiest way is to give yup and save your emotions for someone closer to home. The Little Jade Queen and the Roadster on the other hand, isn't doing that, but however conflicts happens. Recently to take my mind of coffee and the lack of accompliment of a "Confused Soul", My Femme and i were taking quizs to then spare us of unneccessary idle and instead learnt catch phrase. Phrases like "Pun Intended", "I don't know...Kill Kill Kill" and "If you believe that, i have bridge in Arizona i can sell you." made sort of an impact on our daily mundane life. Well, time to get some more rubbish.. prolly the Little Jade Queen will indulge in a little chocolate fest..