I feel like giving up.... But I can't....
How does one curb this feeling of emptiness and frustration?? It's hard but I've tried.. And tried... It's all very hard... Esp when one is so far away from her parents, her friends and siblings... I don't understand why no one understands me or even let me make my own decisions... When that happens, my husband doesn't even help me or defend me... How much longer must I keep quiet and be the submissive one??? When did I lose my will to be strongheaded?? What has happened to me?? I don't even know if I am really happy anymore or know what is tomorow going to make me feel... I am happy that I am married, but why are there so many people trying to interfere in my life... When I was younger, I wouldn't let my parents interfere with my life.. I made the decision to come here and I will not change it, but I am really alone here...