Oh Well, I'm single and I finally grasped it within myself to believe it. It's been almost a month and hey I guess I'm doing quite fine. I sat down one day and started thinking about my life and Where it is heading. (Believe me, it ain't a pretty picture. Being at home for the past few days really has taken it's toil on someone.) I am really grateful for a handful of people who still have faith in me, i.e: My family, my ex and a few of my closest friends. I really should start thinking for myself now and I guess it's beginning. I already have set on my goals in life and I told my ex that I'll be back for him after 2 years. (Yes, I still love him. And yes, I still think he's the one I want.)

I need to get pretty much organised and focus with my life now. Firstly I need to pick myself up and get straight down to clearing my shit load of stuff that I have been putting on hold. Then there is my saving part. I need to save as much as I can and I have given myself 2 years. So Good bye to the life I have been use to.. cos It's time to scrimp, save and be stingy. I can't pamper myself for the next 2 to 3 years if I were to get myself out of this. Secondly, Ashley and I had a long talk, and she decided that she wants to get out the country, to expand her horizon and grow and she accepted my offer to go to the UK with me. So I told her 2 year, we give ourselves 2 years to save as much and to scrimp as much, so that we can go over. My estimated budget is around 10-15K, if I can get that much. Thirdly, I do want to settle down. and hey, I still only want one guy... Yes, that's right. That Guy, My Roadster. I don't know why, I still want him.. and I guess I think that he's really the one for me.. Hopefully, we will be together, and I really hope that it turns out alright between the both of us. I don't think I can find another man like him, who really is out to think for the both of us and a life for the both of us. Sure his methods are a bit not to my liking, but I am adaptable and besides, I have tolerated him for so long, why not. By 26, I hope to see something with my life. and I have to work on it. I only hope he will wait for me, cos If he really walks out of my life, it's really going to be a big blow to me.

Sigh.. I just want him.. A bit crazy now about him, cos I Still do love him.... =3