I have no regrets of what I just did today and It wasn't an Impusive move. (maybe It was, but it isn't.) I've thought about it.. and remember I did say I did want to get a tattoo.... well i did... i got it done and I have really nothing much to say.





It's a very abstract design and it's the chinese word "Jade". Jade: for one to owe it and for it to be beautiful, one must have an infinity with it. It's just like me, If one can accept me, love me and be with me, they must have chemsitry, understanding and special bond with me. Then I shall be at my very best with them and put in my very best. It's a reminder to me, to put in my best for one with a bond with me, a chemistry with me, and love for me. You know who I am talking about and I won't give up trying. (James, if you are reading this, This is my reminder, this part of my life, I will not fail and I will not make another mistake.I have no regrets and my mind is set on only one thing) So LOL i don't know, everyone say it hurts, but I didn't feel that much pain. I didn't flinch, I didn't even cringe. My Pet Goldfish was like "You look so calm." Then I placed her hand over my chest and my heart was beating wildly, but my face was calm and serene. I guess my emotional pain has over taken my physical pain that I didn't feel it. I still do love him with everything I have and I have not regretted doing so. Wait for me, I shall prove my worth to myself... and to all...Numb, Focused and Detatched.