Time Check! It's 0627hrs on a Wednesday morning the 2nd of November 2005. It's the eve of the Hari Raya Pusa Holiday and yesterday was the Depavalli holiday. Now I'm getting ready to go to go to work.
Time to work on my other blog skins, especially for my devil's addiction blog. It's been a while since I updated most of my blogs, mainly because I've been brain dead. I need a muse man... Something to stimulate my creative juices working, to make sure the chemistry flow..to keep my fantasy alive. It's impossible in my house as there is no privacy. I mean to me, Privacy is totally important, especially when it's time for bed. I mean, I know I have a computer in my room, which I use to all my stuff, like my stories and my blogging and my chatting, but when it comes to the time for me to my head down for a rest, I mean I hate it when my dad lingers around my comp and I need to sleep. Just like last night! I mean I gave him the whole day to use the comp and yet he still want to linger around past 1 am. I am a sensitive light sleeper and When I am about to sleep, I need total privacy and silence, with no radiation whatsoever. (Readers: You sure or not? I tot you sleep like the dead or it is just an excuse to play with your toy? *Little Jade Queen gasps and blushes* Little Jade Queen: Excuse me... I think it's my private life and It's my business if it is. Readers: Awww come on.. I know you have a private video and Hentai Collection.. no need to be shy! *Little Jade Queen blushes More!)
All I ask was a little privacy... I mean that's all I need to day dream, find my muse, my inspiration to continue writing. I mean The 5th gear book has been in shelved for a while and well I haven't went past even the first 2 pages in Within.. SO I don't really know how can I get it going again. Maybe I need to meet more people who can stimulate me intellectually. OR maybe I should stop trying to be a writer or maybe stop trying anything that interest me... However that isn't so true about who I am... I am Jade... I live life with the facination of a 5 year old, where Wonders never cease, PAssion never dies and wisdom is on going... How can I just call it quits just like that, not after being the way I am for the past years of my existance... My poor mundane existance which just needs something to spark off and ignite the passions, my dark secrets and my unsatisfied passion for love, life and the forbidden attraction to a certain breed of men... who will reveal me.. the real me, who doesn't need to hide behind my smiles, my bubbly character... One who can see me for the way I am... Simply me... Just Jade... Simply JAde... A Tainted recluse, hiding away from the world, only to seek solice in my own little world....