Well Well, it's been a while and yes, i am finally back blogging. I've never thought that I would have a revived passion for my blog and I was kindda bored with the way it looked.. so guess what. I decided to change the way it looks and well, I'm glad to say, that it's better than before. Now I got a better blog skin and a shout box to kindda see the peeps who has been tagging my blog or more like has stepped foot on my blog (Not that it really matters to me who reads it).

As I said before, the blog is for me to release all my mental clutter of my daily soul-searching and my mental fatigue that has toiled me down in the journey called my life. The fustrating thing now to is to get my radio blog to work. I am playing something of the maker of the blog skin, next I'll play my own once I figured out how to the htmls and web hosting works.

I'm now in a situation whereby I am confused about my status quo (*Readers: Weren't you attached to the Roadster and aren't you both very much in love, from what we remembered? Little Jade Queen: "Yea, we were, but well, shit happened again and he kindda said four words that really take the cake and enough's enough." Readers: That bad eh?" *Little Jade Queen nods*) Yeah, He did it again, and it was the fourth time that he has done that over the past three years plus of our relationship. It was time to call it quits.. Yeah YEah I know all of you peeps are gonna say that we are eventually gonna get back together again, but when is the question. Honestly I can hear all of you placing your bets already on how long is this gonna last and quite frankly, I ain't too sure about it either. *LOL* I'm just hanging on for the ride and hopefully I won't get myself too smashed up or too suckered into it again. Besides, he gotta learn that I am not his PUNCHING bag or something to be chucked aside. I am a woman and Damnit his woman.. if he can stop treating me like something that he can only come to when he wants three things, SEX, COmfort and Affection.

Anyway these days been busy with my ebay thingy, my siblings, my work and my game... I've been playing RBO and watching anime more often than usual. I haven't been writing cos I have been brain dead for the past few months and well Sesshomaru and whoever aren't helping being my muses... Maybe it's the lack of sex... Correction.. it's the LAck of great sex and chemistry.. I mean even Mr. U Know who ain't amusing anymore and the kind of guys I have been meeting ain't exactally been Mr. Stimulation in both the mental and chemistry aspect. *Sigh* I wish Roadster would get back here.. at least I know what I am looking forward to the direction I am going.. or Maybe Steph, Damien or whoever was my exs would catch up with me for stuff.. I mean Wolf's married now.. and I don't have anyone to really manja to... Jana is super busy.. and i really need to catch up with her.. that Woman.. always like that one.. But even so, I'm kindda glad that she misses me at times enough to msg me.. and ask how i am.. Then there is christmas on the way and I am up to my Usual card making and planning for gathering.. *IF I CAN MANAGE TO PULL IT OFF* haven't been that good at it lately.

All I know one thing, I Finally have time to really love and take care of myself and think for myself for once. I don't have to worry for anyone or take care of anyone now... MUAHAHAHAHA THink I am evil? Nope.. think again.. it's time for this Bitch to start partying and working hard towards something that I have put off for a damn long time... Myself, My body, my heart, and My mental well being, and my Spirituality....

"I have found my way back.. back to the path that leads me down to my hidden haven... My hidden Haven inside your embrace.. Safely in your arms.. For you are my Forbidden Desires, My untainted Dreams, My Sinful Temptations.. For I am the Demon's Bride.. The Siren Of The Dark Lord... My Fallen Angel.."