Have you ever reached a point in your life whereby you know you are thinking about something, but you don't know what you are thinking about? I think I have already reached that part of my life. Apparently, after I got back from the pub, I went to the kitchen to prepare my breakfast of oats and strawberries which was conviently located in a cupboard overhead. As I was preparing my breakfast, I kind of dropped my Ipod on the floor and picked it up. I can't remember why I didn't remember that I have left the cupboard opened, but I stood up and walked straight into it. Hitting me square on the forehead. I have noticed that I have been doing that rather recently, for example, while I was ironing. I wasn't really distracted by something, but your mind just went blank for a moment and you just went ahead with the motions of doing things, but not really thinking about what you are doing. Well, number of countless injuries have appeared from these miniture blank moments and I really don't understand where did they come from.

One explaination is that I am too bored and I have been worried about my visa, which hasn't appeared in the last 2 months. I really do wonder if I am going to get it I obviously wouldn't want to end up as a statistic in the bloody database of the UK Immigration, whereby I would "Overstay" my stay, and it would not be entirely my fault. I don't understand why it would take soo long, and furthermore, I am not one of those other immigrants to have come here using other methods. I don't really understand when you don't claim benefits, pay tax while you work and then pay through your bloody teeth for every bloody documents to secure your stay, that It woudl take sooooo bloooooddddyyyy long just to get it approved. I mean I can understand that there are millions of people trying to stay in this country, but how many of them are genuine cases like mine.

Recently, I have been into amirugumi, which is the art of crocheting animals, toys which averages from 3 inches to 6 inches and stuffed with toy stuffing for a cute kid's toy or decorations. I spent a full 5 hours on just one octopus, which I am very proud of, but yet my satin stitch is something that needs to be greatly approved. The Roadster has been proud of me and have been very supportive of me for everything I do. But it's been rather werid lately. I've been getting letargic and then further to that, I've been having weird dreams, for example like last night. I dreamt that we were asleep in bed. He was in the position nearest to the wall, I was in the middle of the bed and right next to me nearest to the outside of the bed was a baby.. NOW That's what I call weird.. So I really think that there is something wrong with me.. and I can't really decipher what it is.. and Please don't tell me that it's my biological clock telling me to have children, cos I don't think I am really ready for it...

I really should be getting back to my novels and I really think I should start on them again, but how do u follow up on something when you have been brain dead...

BLASTED... Even my blog posting doesn't make sense anymore.. Cos I am talking random crap!!!