Back to the daily toil of work.. and still I am looking to get back into the office so that I can sort myself out financially and prepare for the future. I mean, being married 4 months have changed me quite a bit.. I mean, The Roadster says that I nag a bit more, even though I feel that I haven't changed that much... It is actually another step.. and after being together 7 years, it's a really big step. Time is going by so fast and I know that before I know it, It's going to be our first year wedding anniversary.. Still there are alot of things I want to achieve.

When I finally get paid, I am going to start to learning how to drive. That would be a great advantage here in the UK.. Let me tell you, there are so many things I can't do cos of the hassle of traveling. I mean going to central London, I need a bus ride and multiple changes on the London Underground or Overground, just to get to certain destinations. Also, if I managed to get an office job in the City, I would probably make more friends who are around my age. Everyone here in the pub is like 8 years my junior or the person who is a year older than me, behaves like a bloody teenager, going out to get pissed all the time.. and all of them are not married, so there isn't like a support group for "Just in case I get pissed off with my husband, I have someone to talk to"... I miss everyone back home... Esp, Cheryl, Teeny and Aric.. I miss hanging out with them.. I miss the time that when I am stressed that I need to get away from everything that I can just call them and out we go to Minori for dinner and karaoke.. Argh.. I can't wait till I can go back home in March, even for three weeks... I will be fine and focused again.. Just the lack of having someone who understand or people of like minds to hang around with is so hard.. But I know that they still support me..

Sometimes, I feel that I have been distant from all of them and they feel abit distant from me as well.. but that's life isn't it.. I only want to go back and build the bond.. I am very glad that they haven't forgotten me.. Even buying gifts for me even though I am not there... I love them to bits and I don't know what to get for them when I come back.. I hope I make the right choices...

Main aim now is to work and get another job so that I can have more money, not to get pregnant before then so that I can take another set of PROPER wedding pictures, rather than the slap hazzard job that Uncle Johnson did...

Here is what I need to do:
1) Get driving licence
2) Get New Laptop
3) Get Ice cream maker for xmas
4) Go home for a holiday
5) Lose weight
6) New Job
7) Put down a deposit for a house in the next 5 years or for Hubby to get his own pub
8) Then Have kids...

I wonder if I can do it all....